Someone In This world For You.

This year.....is proving itself to be quite eventful-different.I'm not used to being taken care of.Especially with what is going on around me.I know that my friends love me,no matter what.But they never ever got worried about my littlest things before knowing whats actually going on with me.Now,they do.Sometimes I think that all the concern should have existed even before them knowing everything.But I do believe that 'better late than never.'
         
             But there do exist people in around me who care,without actually truly knowing me.Quite wierd,huh?Two people I recently met through my best friend,they do.They care about the littlest things I do-or rather that I don't do.They get pissed,lecture me,give me warnings and then again get pissed at me.But the most important thing is that,they make me smile.They make me smile from my heart 'coz  no one has ever 'cared' so much for me.Well ya,except my mom.
 
         So maybe,MAYBE,this world isn't such a cold place after all.We shouldn't always worry about petty stuff like getting tensed as to why people treat us as if we were invisible,or why hasn't our best friend asked us how we are,because trust me,out there in this big wide world,there is someone who cares.You just gotta believe that.

All I Need To,Is Believe.

Promoted to Class 12.WOW.Feels big.My final year in my old dear school.The most important year.Nervous like hell.Nervous might be an understatement actually....Would I be able to survive through this all?I am really doubting myself now.
        
        Could I fit my studies,my passion for writing, and my designing practice,all in my schedule for the year?I just can't lag in any one of them.All of them are so damn important!
        
         I really should trust myself and my lazy ass,shouldn't I?And more than trusting,believing  in myself.'Coz if I won't,then who else ever would?

Too GOOD to be TRUE.

Whenever I'm not doing anything,I automatically think of him.He's not my boyfriend,or my brother as a matter of fact.He's my friend....or at least he says that he is. We've known each other since quite a while now and he's sweet to me.So...yea,it can be a crush. A super minor one, mind you.

So here's a thing.I have major trusting issues.I either trust a person completely or I don't at all.There's no mid way to it.And from what I've experienced,I've always trusted the wrong person.And so there's a part of me that believes that he will also leave me like everyone else did.

I've told him everything about me,my problems, short falls,and even about my trusting issues.I told him that I'm scared that he'd also leave me like everyone else did,so it'd be better if he did that now as I din't want him to be forced into any kind of stuff,but he told me that he never will.He'll always be there for me  and that I won't find an escape from him that easily.

He's all supportive and kind and sweet to me,and even was when he din't know me that well.A gentleman.But a part of me feels that all this is fake. Not his behavior, I'm hell as sure that he's a gentleman.But with whats between us.Our friendship.Like he doesn't want it.This doesn't feel real.

I might as well be imagining stuff because of all my losses.But more than the others,I don't trust myself.I cant trust my life.Nothing that good ever happen to me all of a sudden,then how can this?

YOU wanted her.

My pet dog,Candy,is 5 yrs now.I was not that fond of dogs before we adopted her,I liked them just fine.Neither did my mom want one as she didn't wanted to be the one to take care of Candy's petty things.But nevertheless,we got her because my sister wanted one.She love(s/d) them.To such an extent that I don't think I would ever understand.She is her 'mom' and I am her 'aunt'.And Candy's a total sweetheart,an un-trained and mischievous sweetheart.

My sister is kind of an introvert person,and so I never expected that so much love and affection actually existed in her.But I saw it all as Candy came over.I can't complain,as I fell in love with her too.That's the thing about dogs,they make you fall in love with them.

So until just a few month ago,we discovered lices in Candy's body.Numerous amount of them of every sizes(disgusting).And till a few days ago,they became too much for us to bear.Mom got her medicine for my sister to treat her with.But she didn't. My sister refused to take her into her room to sleep because 'she might dirty her room'.And as to what I was told,she even thought of abandoning her to the streets as Candy has now become 'un-hygenic'.What mother does that?

I was heart broken.She treated Candy like an untouchable.Poor fellow.But I was detemined,detemined to make her overcome the illness.I sat with her all day removing her lices.I bathed her.I did everything I could.

And now that she's in a better shape,my sister is crooning her!I'm like,seriously?Are you kidding me?YOU decided to abandon her.YOU were selfish to stay away from her and not help her.YOU begged mom to get her.YOU wanted her.

Clueless.

I've not started a blog because I find it cool.No.Writing a blog has always been on my mind,for certainly no specific reason.I like writing (which I've discovered just recently)....and still I have no explanations as to why I have created a blog of my own.

I don't want sympathy votes.Not that I'm saying that my life is that pathetic that I might be needing some (I'm well aware that there exist probably millions of people in this world who seriously might be living a had time).My life is all that I didn't expect it to be.But then again,well,who's is?